I have felt so wonderful lately. Almost superhuman. I look around and see so many people who just don't give a shit, as they drink their beers, let their bellies grow as a stand for their beer, watch football and Goldrush and yell out random obscenities.
Eh, that's a bit harsh.
It just seem like most people get into their cliques as a group or individual and don't branch out. Like a girl that's beautiful and because of that, doesn't bother working toward things like common sense skills, or various other skills.. at all. Maybe apply make-up. People fit into their cultured stereotypes and pretty much stay there for the most part.
Then there are the few people that don't stick to easy routes, and challenge themselves with classes and workouts, and goals outside of their comfort zones.
I'm going to be really arrogant and brag right now. I feel really strong lately. I don't think i look very much stronger, but working out at the Y has made me really.. toned.
I feel much more attractive too! Huge for me, i usually don't have a lot of that self-esteem stuff. My jaw has become very bold, and sharp. My eyes have gotten darker, and my eyebrows hover above them at just the right height. My hair has taken this bizarre mold when i wake up,. and i'm really starting to like the look. My skin is softer, my energy is through the roof. Thoughts are completed, sentences seem much more fluent. I have the witticisms about me that are much more refined, possibly adorable?
I get to teach science to kids at such a young age, i get to further my studies in chemistry. I even get to train all volunteers how to present themselves at a demonstrations, and teach the demos themselves. I just feel intelligent. And i am.
It surprises me how little people know about everyday things even.
I'm toying with ideas about the universe, putting logics together. Finding my true self through all of this. What i want out of life, accepting what it can give me. Learning how to love and tolerate.
*Deep sigh* I just feel good. You know?
Im going to go to Butler soon. Possibly WSU if the engineering professor can get me a fews scholarships.
I just ate some vegan food. Not really my thing, but was completely impressed by how it not only tasted, but made me feel. Really good food. Really good.
- Realistic future: Go to college, become a biochemist
- Dream: Fight in the UFC and become a computer tech on the side
Hmph.
I bought a ton of muscle builder powder, i hope i don't die. That stuff is nasty. Steroids are always an option though...
I also have to say, it's good to have my friend back. A part of my heart has become content. He's such a good guy, and i missed having a friend that wasn't a girl who wanted in my pants all the time.
God is also a part of me know. I missed that as well. I was gone for awhile there..
And he has huge plans for the rebuilding of my heart.
Ah. Im just. Good.
Have a wonderful rest of the day world, feel good too.
